I ditched her, i surely did. I have been a sex freak. I have never been able to understand life's reality. I have never been able to understand what People talk and what they mean. But tell you what some of my fundas have been very clear as to how to deal with my relatives. May be that is what i have seen right from the start. I have been a protected child, some way because i am youngest of the 3. My mom loves me a lot , but myself has been really rude to her. I now think i have not been able to respect my parents to the extent i should be. They have done a lot. They have made all theri children stand personally and professionally. Peple envy us because of the way we have been brought up and what we are today. I dont know whether i would be able to face many of my female friends. I dont think so, when they will come to know that i cheated upon a girl. I dont know if i cheated or i have done good to her. But what i think is i have not seen life when i was with her. i remain immature, and now when dust i finally getting settled in the form of so called break up i think i have grown mature. I have been immature partially because many of my friends have been immature till the time they joined the Big four audit firms. They really got matured. but myself, again protected in the sense that i got a break in the company where my cousin is the CFO. However i surely know and by this i dont mean to be egoistic that i am better off as compared to them, not economically but learning i have got. Things lookvery dim. I dont know where the helkl my life is going. I dont know if i would be able to live wihout her????