Am i right or wrong?

Its really a moment when all my philosiphies are taking a beating. Also its tough to explain to her what all i have been through. At the same time, I can not show her that i am so weak, that may make her weak as well. But as far as i know her she is someone who would want me to cry if she is crying. Its all a result of extreme posessiveness from her side. Don't know if girl like that would have been good for me? or carefree girl would be good for me, who may end up not caring for me at all? Have not been with lot of girls, may be thats y i dont know how girls are? When i see my cousin who is CFO as well and see him suffering at the hand of a woman, it surely makes me believe what he is used to say "Three things in life that comes by luck: Studies, career, partner" I dont know why people like me or for the fact her as well think alot. I have seen people who dont care at all, and have seen them leading beautiful life. Things may get worse if i keep on thinking. One should live life at his/her own terms. As i was used to say "let the world be f**ked i dont care", though i said that just for the sake of saying. Human is a complex breed. It is easy to say it would have been better if i would have been this or that animal. However i think they are also similar. I would advice god not to put hearts in humans. Just mind should be there. But then this world may not be the place where you would love to be........